So yesterday Kale went to the dentist for a check up. While the chick was cleaning his teeth she mentioned how loose one was and how the dentist may want to pull it cause it was hanging there. Well about that time she started polishing that tooth and out it popped. Kale screamed, blood gushed, and a tooth went flying.....after I realized he was fine I thought wow she prolly just saved me a hundred bucks by the dentist not having to pull it.....bad mommy. So other than that his teeth are healthy and his other front tooth is loose and will be next. How that kid has healthy teeth I will never know, nor will I complain about it. I can barely brush his teeth, let alone for the 2 minutes they recommend. So, even though we waited 2 1/2 hours to get called back Kale did well. There were kids kicking, screaming, yelling, crying, and Kale looked at them like whats the big deal. For some reason he fights for me to brush his teeth, but when we go to the dentist he just lays there and opens his mouth, seriously he does. I think he fights me to make my life hard :) The tooth fairy; being the brilliant, awesome, beautiful, person she is left him three dollars :)
Elijah is doing good and finally gaining weight. He took a bath the other night with Ruby Kate, which I am sure scarred him for life hehe They look like Ebony and Ivory, poor white kid. After the bath he and RK fought over the passy and dug through the diaper bag.....(I will get pictures of all this posted soon but my computer is being stupid!)
Things with Blake and I are going ok. Hopefully the adjustment period is about to be over with. I tell you I am going to ask for a raise!!! Being a wife is hard stuff!!! And me biting my tongue is even harder!!! I just keep telling myself one day at a time and that I am where God wants me to be. Blake knows he is going to re-up but doesn't know if he wants to stay at Ft Sill or go to Ft Sam Houston(San Antonio, TX). For selfish reasons I would like to stay at Sill. I finally have friends there, the schools are awesome, and it would be easier setting up shop there. BUT Ft Sam Houston is a medic's dream post. I so want him to get it, but it is hard to get assigned there. So who knows where we will end up.....I don't care as long as we are all together. This week will hold more of the same.....school, grocery shopping, and playing with the boys. Friday is Kale's birthday!!! I can't believe he will be 8!!! It doesn't seem possible!!! His dad, stepmother, and sister are going to come see him and we are going to party!!!! So, that should be fun, right?!?! I guess that is about all.....not much to blog about really. Maybe one day I will be able to blog about the end of the deployment....ooohhhh I can't wait!!! I'm off to cook some dinner and then have bath time for the boys. Peace out!!! 143
The Family
This is us about 6 hours after Elijah arrived. I'm happy because the phenergan had worn off and no I'm not on pain meds here.
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Catch Up!
Well since it has been 20 forevers since I wrote a blog I thought I would make an appearance. Nothing has been going on around here. Last week was hell on wheels and this week is shaping up to be the same way. I am going stir crazy in hickville, but what can ya do. Blake is doing ok and hopefully will be home for R&R in a couple months. We desperately need the R&R to get here. Seems we will have a couple good days and the a bad two weeks and then repeat the process all over again. I am about to the end of my rope-I don't know what to do. Every time I try venting I hear well cut him some slack he is stressed out. Yes, he is and I understand that, but in my own defense I am a little on the stressed side. Its starting to seriously mess with my mind, body, and soul. The stupid bitch Aunt Flo is making her appearance twice a month and bringing Uncle Cramp with her both times!!! UGH!!!! So the past week I have been accused of only thinking of myself. Maybe I do.....I wonder what would happen if I started thinking only of myslef. Lunches wouldn't be packed, clothes wouldn't be washed, babies wouldn't get fed, and care packages wouldn't get sent. I'm not trying to say I am all that and a bag of skittles, but come on a little credit. I do, however, think of myself when I go get my nails did and eyebrows waxed.....I don't want to look like Bert.
I find myself wondering why all of this is happening and what is to come of everything. I know God has a reason for everything, but come on a little slack wouldn't kill ya! Even though it may not be apparent to most people, my husband included, I am doing the best that I can! I know those same people think I am too weak to make it through this, BUT the people that know me know different. Someone tells me I can't do something and I make sure I accomplish it if for nothing else than to piss them off......that's the bitch coming out in me. Its been 2 months since Blake left and I still find myself waking up reaching for him. Stupid me woke up the other day at 6 reaching for him and thought oh he is just gone to PT. I sat there a minute and said Lindsey you are loosing it!! Maybe I am. I take pride in my role as a wife and mother, and I find myself not being able to be a wife. Yes, I still have the title, but none of the responsibilities. I can't cook for him, make sure he has uniforms to wear, laugh at him and with him.......I miss him terribly and often times I wonder if he feels the same way.
I look down at the boys and watch them play and thank God for my healthy family. True most people don't consider Kale healthy, but compared to where he has been he is the picture of perfection to me. Elijah, bless his heart, is still a runt. He is starting to get some thighs on him and a little belly, but I wonder what the next step will be if he isn't gaining weight. Not to worry, I am gaining enough for both of us! Kale is doing well in school so far and he seems to like it.
I don't know what the rest of the deployment has in store for us. All I can do is hope for the best and keep truckin' along. So, at the end of the day I put my faith in God knowing that he will lead me down the right path. I keep telling myself I am where God wants me to be. I try to see the good in every bad day, wondering what I can learn from that day. When I find myself lost and not knowing where I fit in, I look at my boys and it all makes since. I have to keep pushing along, not for me, but for them. Me sitting here crying itsn't helping anyone, most of all them. So, I pick myself up, dust myself on, put a smile on my face, and take on the world head on. So everyone and I meane EVERYONE know that I really am doing my best, the best I know how. Maybe one day someone will see that. Until then......................................................................143
I find myself wondering why all of this is happening and what is to come of everything. I know God has a reason for everything, but come on a little slack wouldn't kill ya! Even though it may not be apparent to most people, my husband included, I am doing the best that I can! I know those same people think I am too weak to make it through this, BUT the people that know me know different. Someone tells me I can't do something and I make sure I accomplish it if for nothing else than to piss them off......that's the bitch coming out in me. Its been 2 months since Blake left and I still find myself waking up reaching for him. Stupid me woke up the other day at 6 reaching for him and thought oh he is just gone to PT. I sat there a minute and said Lindsey you are loosing it!! Maybe I am. I take pride in my role as a wife and mother, and I find myself not being able to be a wife. Yes, I still have the title, but none of the responsibilities. I can't cook for him, make sure he has uniforms to wear, laugh at him and with him.......I miss him terribly and often times I wonder if he feels the same way.
I look down at the boys and watch them play and thank God for my healthy family. True most people don't consider Kale healthy, but compared to where he has been he is the picture of perfection to me. Elijah, bless his heart, is still a runt. He is starting to get some thighs on him and a little belly, but I wonder what the next step will be if he isn't gaining weight. Not to worry, I am gaining enough for both of us! Kale is doing well in school so far and he seems to like it.
I don't know what the rest of the deployment has in store for us. All I can do is hope for the best and keep truckin' along. So, at the end of the day I put my faith in God knowing that he will lead me down the right path. I keep telling myself I am where God wants me to be. I try to see the good in every bad day, wondering what I can learn from that day. When I find myself lost and not knowing where I fit in, I look at my boys and it all makes since. I have to keep pushing along, not for me, but for them. Me sitting here crying itsn't helping anyone, most of all them. So, I pick myself up, dust myself on, put a smile on my face, and take on the world head on. So everyone and I meane EVERYONE know that I really am doing my best, the best I know how. Maybe one day someone will see that. Until then......................................................................143
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Does Size Matter????
So, does size really matter?? According to pediatricians it does. I took the boys to the doctor yesterday and my little runt Elijah has fallen off of the growth chart. Not in the 1%, I mean 0%. At his 4 month check up he was 25.25 inches in length and 12lbs 12oz in weight. Well yesterday at his 6 month he was 26in and 13lbs 3 1/2 oz hmmmmm. My poor runt. So, since he can't eat more than 4 ounces at a time without you wearing it, Dr Sneed put us on double strength formula. She thinks he is so active that he is burning off everything he is eating. So we will try that and go back for a weight check in a few weeks. We also checked his thyroid function, because I didn't want it to go unlooked at like Kale's did thanks to ACH, and since we were getting blood any how we went ahead and did a full blood work up on Elijah. I know you are thinking we are stressing too much over the weight, but last time I had a child fall off the growth chart, that is when all hell broke loose. So we want to make sure we cover our basis here.
Kale on the other hand is a picture of health. He had grown and couple inches and lost 3 pounds. I thought he had and this confirms it. All of that walking around and the nutritionist suggestions are paying off. A nutritionist that works at the hospital with mom was nice enough to draw us up a meal plan of sorts for Kale. She even put it into English so that I can understand it, because nutritionist talk is like a whole different language than regular medical jargon. Kale showed off his walking skills to Dr Sneed, and she about cried. Everyone's hard work, most of all Kale's, is starting to pay off.......now if we could just get him to talk. We also did blood work on Kale just to make sure none of his meds need adjusting and got referrals for the dentist and eye doctor.
Thats about all that has been going on around here. Oh yeah. Mom and dad had a new air unit put in. So we are thinking cool sailing....um not so much. They didn't have a part to finish it so we had no air last night. Every single time we come down to mom and dad's their air messes up, maybe I am cursed. It got cool in here about midnight or so, but I hope they come to finish it today. Well that is about all from here. Blake is on his way to a different FOB in Iraq and should be there tomorrow morning his time, late tonight our time. He was suppose to already be there but they had a sand storm so that put them back a day or so. I guess that is about it. I will feed my runt again and try to get him fat. Peace out homies!
Kale on the other hand is a picture of health. He had grown and couple inches and lost 3 pounds. I thought he had and this confirms it. All of that walking around and the nutritionist suggestions are paying off. A nutritionist that works at the hospital with mom was nice enough to draw us up a meal plan of sorts for Kale. She even put it into English so that I can understand it, because nutritionist talk is like a whole different language than regular medical jargon. Kale showed off his walking skills to Dr Sneed, and she about cried. Everyone's hard work, most of all Kale's, is starting to pay off.......now if we could just get him to talk. We also did blood work on Kale just to make sure none of his meds need adjusting and got referrals for the dentist and eye doctor.
Thats about all that has been going on around here. Oh yeah. Mom and dad had a new air unit put in. So we are thinking cool sailing....um not so much. They didn't have a part to finish it so we had no air last night. Every single time we come down to mom and dad's their air messes up, maybe I am cursed. It got cool in here about midnight or so, but I hope they come to finish it today. Well that is about all from here. Blake is on his way to a different FOB in Iraq and should be there tomorrow morning his time, late tonight our time. He was suppose to already be there but they had a sand storm so that put them back a day or so. I guess that is about it. I will feed my runt again and try to get him fat. Peace out homies!
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Insomnia Bites!!!!
So why am I not sleeping?? I haven't slept more than 2 or 3 hours a night in weeks!!!! Crazy thing is I don't feel tired. I know at some point I will burn out, because I am getting too old for this. Today was a very productive day for me. I actually got caught up on school work, made eye appointments for Kale and I, dentist appointment for me, registered with a Pharmacy, did laundry, and just got done cleaning the kitchen. Yes that is how exciting my life is, doing dishes at midnight! I like to keep the excitement to a minimum wouldn't want anyone to have heart palpitations on me. :) Other than that nothing else has been happening around the Brietz household. While in seminar tonight I did learn about STD's. Bottom line: wear a hat when traveling!!! And we also learned how they put in penile extensions. Why I have to know that to type up medical records I don't know, but hey I could have me a job on the side......I could call it Lindsey's Slice Shop. Kinda catchy I think! OK this blog is going absolutely nowhere so I guess I will stop there. Blake stay safe! Miss you and love you!!!
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Monday, August 4, 2008
Getting In a Groove
Well it has been a little over a month now since Blake left for Iraq. Slowly, but surely, the boys and I are getting in a groove. Yes some days I want to pull my hair out!!! Some days I wish I could just go shopping and come home when I want to. That being said I wouldn't change anything! In a weird kind of way I think this deployment will not only strengthen our marriage, but our family in general. When you only get to talk for a short time it forces you to have communication. And since I can't give Blake go to hell looks I have to use my words haha. Its true that you don't know what you've got until its gone. I keep myself busy so as to not break down, but there are days when the boys are in bed and the house is quiet I sit down and just cry a little bit. Instead of it getting easier to sleep, its getting harder. I have tried putting pillows on Blake's side of the bed, but its just not working. I make sure to talk about him daily to the boys and show them pictures of him, its the best I can do for now. It gets lonely, very lonely. A HUGE part of me is kicking myself in the ass for moving back to Arkansas. Yes, it took me forever to get adjusted to Oklahoma life, that place is like a different country haha. It's just weird, I don't know how to explain it.
In other Blake news.....he found out today that he will be moving to a different FOB. So, if I gave you his address don't send anything until you get a new address from me. He should be leaving for his new FOB in the next week or so. He is doing fine, just missing home. But have you seen me lately?? Sexy as hell I am, I mean who wouldn't miss me haha Just kidding there and everyone knows it.
The boys are both doing fine. Kale is getting ready to start another school year and I don't think he is too excited about it. Elijah is growing like a weed!! He is so flippin funny!! He and Kale had their first "discussion" over a toy the other day, I must admit I just sat back and laughed.
I must apologize to everyone. I know this past month I have been in a "funk". Its just been really hard, but it is getting a little better. I keep telling myself 1 month down only 11-14 more to go! Blake and I are looking into taking a trip, just for us, when he gets back. Right now my fav is St. Lucia!!! SO if anyone has any ideas on a nice, romantic place please let me know. I said we could just go to Hot Springs and stay at a B & B or something. To which my husband replied, "I be damned if I spend a year in this hell hole to go to Hot Springs." So, he twisted my arm, and I am looking at other places. Well I guess that is about all for now. Blake the boys and I love you and miss you!! Please stay safe!! 143
In other Blake news.....he found out today that he will be moving to a different FOB. So, if I gave you his address don't send anything until you get a new address from me. He should be leaving for his new FOB in the next week or so. He is doing fine, just missing home. But have you seen me lately?? Sexy as hell I am, I mean who wouldn't miss me haha Just kidding there and everyone knows it.
The boys are both doing fine. Kale is getting ready to start another school year and I don't think he is too excited about it. Elijah is growing like a weed!! He is so flippin funny!! He and Kale had their first "discussion" over a toy the other day, I must admit I just sat back and laughed.
I must apologize to everyone. I know this past month I have been in a "funk". Its just been really hard, but it is getting a little better. I keep telling myself 1 month down only 11-14 more to go! Blake and I are looking into taking a trip, just for us, when he gets back. Right now my fav is St. Lucia!!! SO if anyone has any ideas on a nice, romantic place please let me know. I said we could just go to Hot Springs and stay at a B & B or something. To which my husband replied, "I be damned if I spend a year in this hell hole to go to Hot Springs." So, he twisted my arm, and I am looking at other places. Well I guess that is about all for now. Blake the boys and I love you and miss you!! Please stay safe!! 143
Sunday, August 3, 2008
Finally here! How it's been. Part 3 of 3
Well, after all of us left ali al-salem; each with our own section. we were divided up into 2 major sections, each having a HQ and 3-4 force protection units a piece. It is no secret what we are here for, but I will not always be going into specifics. Lets just say our guys work long shifts and help protect the base. After leaving Camp V, we went to Ali to depart our separate ways.
the first day in country, we had a bad dust storm. Little did i know that weather would play a big role in my upcoming job. I went in to get linins and a room when I was told that I would be the armorer and mail handler, on top of whatever it was I was going to do. My job...my MOS, well, i don't even mess with it here. It isn't needed.
So, for now, with one month in country and a paycheck or two under my belt, things are fine. I saved up and got a TV and a small fridge. I have my lappy-top and enough legit and black market DVD's to last me a while. I managed to find something better than a expensive ass calling card, called SPAWAR. I have also recieved 2 boxes from Lin. I love all the mail I get, though I dont get alot. We all do. send more please..:-)
I don't work out as much as i should, and a smoke more than i should. I dream of my wife and kids, and of seeing the world. I have managed to get in trouble a time or two for silly things, but I am getting better at my job and at life. I miss some of the guys i hung out with alot, and I enjoy some of the others.
My level of respect and admiration has went down for quite a few of our batteries important people, while it has went up for a few of some of the joes like myself. All in all, I am here to get paid and get promoted. Just like any other guy. I dont care about Iraq, or anything like that. I care about my guys, and anyone else in uniform. They are all that matters for now. The medic in me cares for peoples well-being.
I am finding I need to be more of a man: more confrontational, more vocal, more of a leader, ect.
I am not alot of those things. I suck at speaking....I tend to be low key. basicly, I need to change alot of myself and quit being afraid.
If any of you have questions about what all I do, what it is like over here...I mean anything!
Send Lin an email or just post them here. She will make sure I see them and answer them.
In the mean, when things happen (excluding opsec stuff and deaths), I'll post them here.
laters!
the first day in country, we had a bad dust storm. Little did i know that weather would play a big role in my upcoming job. I went in to get linins and a room when I was told that I would be the armorer and mail handler, on top of whatever it was I was going to do. My job...my MOS, well, i don't even mess with it here. It isn't needed.
So, for now, with one month in country and a paycheck or two under my belt, things are fine. I saved up and got a TV and a small fridge. I have my lappy-top and enough legit and black market DVD's to last me a while. I managed to find something better than a expensive ass calling card, called SPAWAR. I have also recieved 2 boxes from Lin. I love all the mail I get, though I dont get alot. We all do. send more please..:-)
I don't work out as much as i should, and a smoke more than i should. I dream of my wife and kids, and of seeing the world. I have managed to get in trouble a time or two for silly things, but I am getting better at my job and at life. I miss some of the guys i hung out with alot, and I enjoy some of the others.
My level of respect and admiration has went down for quite a few of our batteries important people, while it has went up for a few of some of the joes like myself. All in all, I am here to get paid and get promoted. Just like any other guy. I dont care about Iraq, or anything like that. I care about my guys, and anyone else in uniform. They are all that matters for now. The medic in me cares for peoples well-being.
I am finding I need to be more of a man: more confrontational, more vocal, more of a leader, ect.
I am not alot of those things. I suck at speaking....I tend to be low key. basicly, I need to change alot of myself and quit being afraid.
If any of you have questions about what all I do, what it is like over here...I mean anything!
Send Lin an email or just post them here. She will make sure I see them and answer them.
In the mean, when things happen (excluding opsec stuff and deaths), I'll post them here.
laters!
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